Writing a journal in the middle of the night is not a good idea. I'm not even coherent. And yet I do it at LEAST half the time.

I seem to have completely lost my drawing-zing. If that's the way to describe it. How you just kinda get this feeling when you've just gotten a great idea of something to draw? Yeah. Mine's gone.

Although I am working on drawing an actual manga. I secretly wish I could be a mangaka when I grow up, but I doubt that could ever happen unless I improve a LOT in the next few years.

Plus, I just can never make something I've drawn look the same again. I try to draw a character a second time...and they look completely different! My drawing style seems to involuntarily change every time I draw something...

It just makes my heart ache seeing how good some people are at drawing and thinking, "I wonder if I'll ever be that good?" and knowing the answer is no.

Life is so frustrating sometimes.